Thursday, February 18, 2010
Suddenly, i just feel like posting. :O
gahh, life has been horrible for me, and obs is just a few weeks away. :/
its really horrible cause im really dreading it although many people are looking forward to it. :/
and ahhhh i have so much work to do, and this inevitable awkwardness with my last year clique. D:
i dont even feel the awkwardness with vanessagohqianhui when i see her like once or twice every year but i see my last year clique like almost every single day and yet we have this really strong and weird feeling like we dont have anything to talk about and like we are short of time to even talk and catch up with each other. D:
and oh well, i dont seem to be catching what is going in class although i changed so much like seriously im so much more hardworking and mugger and attentive and basically just more conscientious of school work but ahh all that isnt doing much. :/
life still pretty much sucks, and plus i have really smart people sitting in front of me and one of them, she is like i dont know how to say kind of smart, like she's omg smart ahhh and then i am super pressurized and stressed up because of her. this means good and bad for me cause im actually working a whole lot harder but this adds on to my amount of stress and this results in insomnia + mood swings for me. this is gets really obvious when i actually give others the irritated face when i cant solve math problems or im overwhelmed by the amount of work for me which i never used to do. D: im totally guily about it cause i feel really really evil when i dont even mean it. D: AHH.
to add on the stress that i have for schoolwork, im overwhelmed with cca commitment and other admin stuff that i have gahhh. oh man i really hope that ill get through this as soon as possible and i feel like im giving up alrd cause im starting to sleep earlier and abandoning work cause i really dont feel any sense of urgency for work anymore. :/
ah, sorry about being whiny. D:
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